just a thought...

..there were times when people came to me and asked me what I think about life,how I lived through the devastation it caused me most of the time.Well,I guess I just have to be strong though.I mean,not just strong to facing it but strong enough to live with it.And for me,it is typical.Typical because if you planting bad seeds,all you going to get is bad fruit.If you do bad deeds,well...what goes around,comes around.We just have to figure it out,learn about it,teach ourselves a lesson, keep on reminding ourselves how much pain we can bring to ourselves and entirely to our lives because of that,and the worst part is,we could end up dying,dying inside out if you know what I mean.I’d battled constantly,each and every single day,fighting ,striving, struggling,making the right choices,making the right moves,not to mention repenting and remorsing those stupid things I’ve done and gone through all my life.Would that be enough?Of course,they don’t.You have to go extra miles in order to get things done,in order to get things come to your way,in order to get things right.Don’t do it some of the time but all the time.It’s ok to make mistakes,it’s the best way to learn to be better.But in my case,I made mistakes all the time. It’s not that I didn’t learn from it,but I just can’t get the real answer,and I am still searching. Searching for the right answer,I suppose.Searching until there’s nothing left for me to further on.

I figure out something though,through out this life I’ve been living.Anything you do,whatever it is the situation,be it as a man or a woman,as a human being,you just can’t stop searching. Searching the way to be good in anything,searching the right way to be better every day,searching the best step for the next best step to take,searching and keep on searching.That’s what I was doing all these time and still am.Even people didn’t see anything good from it, especially those who had been with me.“Bob,you just don’t seem to make things right,all you do was creating messes.”I’d always hear that word.But there I was and here I am,still standing with all I’ve got.Then,another thing is to trust.Although trust doesn’t come that easy to me,but there are times you just need to trust someone and thus, you should start with someone....

money matters...

it has been 19 days since we got up in the morning of 1st february...and it's been 50 days we're in 2010...any differents with ur life so far...?any good progresses?any good moments?i started my january with a project with a friend of mine,kabir bahtia,a good movie director...a story about the sandakan death march during the japanese invasion in sabah during the ww2 in 1943...it was a good story tho,a damn good one...the sets were amazing,the props were so interestingyet so challenging during getting it prepared...but unfortunately,for me,i couldnt finish the job...well,i got some major resentments with my preparations day in day out...felt like i couldnt deliver my work day by day,i couldnt perform well in my tasks...so i pulled out...but i pulled out in a civilized way,not just walk away like that without telling anyone...i got myself a replacement,i handed over the tasks thoroughly....but still,it was a great experience.one of the best project i did so far...so coming in future is 2 films...but not sure which one i will be involved...hopefully i could involve in both n finish it...ha ha...but i'll make sure i am well prepared this time around...see ya...

3 days to go....

1.it's only 3 days to go before we leave 2009 n say hi to 2010.wow,so many things happened,so many people come n go,so many friends became foe,enemy became the only shoulder to cry on...so many tears,so many hatred,so many happiness,so many cheerful moments.2010 is about to bring more n more of those events.are we prepared for that...?are we equipped to fight the obstacles it may bring to us?or are we gonna just stand and watch as others do it for us as always...?

2.2009 has been ups n downs year for me.so many blacks in whites,so many warm in hot,so many fire in ice.but i'm still here standing tall,standing with pride.as i told wrote in my last blog,my work is picking up bit by bit.it's good enuff for me rather than not having anything...2010 will be a busy year for me,that's for sure...

3.what i want for this year is get rich n richer,meet new friends along the way,hate less people...ha ha ha...

4.see ya....

i'm back...

it's been like 2-3 months i havent wrote anything here...yeahh,work is picking up so well recently.project after project...it's good tho for...it's good that i could pay so many bills,it's good that i could spend on things...it's good to be at work again,especially...my recent project was a thriller movie.a motion picture produced by a producer whom never work with...ha ha..it's kinda normal,aint it...?so the movie was shot in 19 days,and it was a very tiring one...u know,when u do shoot a film with big sets and u only have 19 days to complete...so many hiccups here n there,weather,people's attitude n so on...but we managed to finish it even in tiring situations...got few scenes that we still need to shoot but not at the near future...now i'm back to the office,actually it's been 2 weeks,so i'm focusing on my next movie scheduled in january.it's a historical movie about the japanese invasion in 1945...cool tho,big sets,big story...cant wait to start...

my love life-i'm still going strong with my beautiful girl...she has been so supportive n understandings..she's awesome n i am so lucky to have her in my life...this coming new year is gonna be the 3rd year we celebrating it together...3 amazing years....

i will tell u more when i blogging agaain...see ya...

it's been a while...

hmm..it's been a while since i last posted something in here...well,kinda busy with work the past 10 days...thank God,i'm so grateful that i have few jobs to do,few small projects to run...better than nothing ya'll...finished 2 of them,now got few more to go...payment wasnt so big,but for me it's ok than zero...at least i manage to get some...back to freelancer...no attachments,so i could go anywhere i want to,work with anyone i want to...not much of headaches...and not much of heart-aches...!!!lol...it was a tiring 10 days actually,but i was happy with the projects...last nite i went ofr my futsal..(after 2 weeks of not playing...)my god,it was so good to be back on the pitch...and the greater news was,CHELSEA won over the reds...ho ho ho...it was a world class match i have to say...today i started an editing for my motion pictures voice dubbing...hmmm,pretty hard tho...but,i think i'll manage...so i think that's all for now...see ya...

it's been a while...

hmm,it's been a while since i last wrote in here...there's nothing much to share actually,u know it's been quiet days for me...been staying in the whole 2 weeks ago...gone nowhere,done nothing much...raya is coming,just around the corner...preaprations?nothing much...just for my son...really done have any mood to celebrate also...hopefully after raya,things will go good again...gonna be busy after raya,i hope...there u go,nothing much left to say at the moment...see ya...

the end of it...?

1.it's a big question that i keep asking myself day in n day out...the answer to it is mostly yes,it's the end of it...it's the end of my duty in the company,it's the end of my responsibilities in the business,it's the end of it,yes it is...
2.havent been going to work since wednesday,i just stay at home,watch tv.yesterday i went to my friend's office for a while.been calling so many people over the past 3 days...3 days ago,i called up my father,after 5 years we never talk to each other.he sounded find and healthy.as usual,he will do all the talking whenever we talk over the phone...hmm..but,he's fine,i'm glad...
3.i think that's all...such a boring day to write anything....