3 days to go....

1.it's only 3 days to go before we leave 2009 n say hi to 2010.wow,so many things happened,so many people come n go,so many friends became foe,enemy became the only shoulder to cry on...so many tears,so many hatred,so many happiness,so many cheerful moments.2010 is about to bring more n more of those events.are we prepared for that...?are we equipped to fight the obstacles it may bring to us?or are we gonna just stand and watch as others do it for us as always...?

2.2009 has been ups n downs year for me.so many blacks in whites,so many warm in hot,so many fire in ice.but i'm still here standing tall,standing with pride.as i told wrote in my last blog,my work is picking up bit by bit.it's good enuff for me rather than not having anything...2010 will be a busy year for me,that's for sure...

3.what i want for this year is get rich n richer,meet new friends along the way,hate less people...ha ha ha...

4.see ya....

i'm back...

it's been like 2-3 months i havent wrote anything here...yeahh,work is picking up so well recently.project after project...it's good tho for...it's good that i could pay so many bills,it's good that i could spend on things...it's good to be at work again,especially...my recent project was a thriller movie.a motion picture produced by a producer whom never work with...ha ha..it's kinda normal,aint it...?so the movie was shot in 19 days,and it was a very tiring one...u know,when u do shoot a film with big sets and u only have 19 days to complete...so many hiccups here n there,weather,people's attitude n so on...but we managed to finish it even in tiring situations...got few scenes that we still need to shoot but not at the near future...now i'm back to the office,actually it's been 2 weeks,so i'm focusing on my next movie scheduled in january.it's a historical movie about the japanese invasion in 1945...cool tho,big sets,big story...cant wait to start...

my love life-i'm still going strong with my beautiful girl...she has been so supportive n understandings..she's awesome n i am so lucky to have her in my life...this coming new year is gonna be the 3rd year we celebrating it together...3 amazing years....

i will tell u more when i blogging agaain...see ya...

it's been a while...

hmm..it's been a while since i last posted something in here...well,kinda busy with work the past 10 days...thank God,i'm so grateful that i have few jobs to do,few small projects to run...better than nothing ya'll...finished 2 of them,now got few more to go...payment wasnt so big,but for me it's ok than zero...at least i manage to get some...back to freelancer...no attachments,so i could go anywhere i want to,work with anyone i want to...not much of headaches...and not much of heart-aches...!!!lol...it was a tiring 10 days actually,but i was happy with the projects...last nite i went ofr my futsal..(after 2 weeks of not playing...)my god,it was so good to be back on the pitch...and the greater news was,CHELSEA won over the reds...ho ho ho...it was a world class match i have to say...today i started an editing for my motion pictures voice dubbing...hmmm,pretty hard tho...but,i think i'll manage...so i think that's all for now...see ya...

it's been a while...

hmm,it's been a while since i last wrote in here...there's nothing much to share actually,u know it's been quiet days for me...been staying in the whole 2 weeks ago...gone nowhere,done nothing much...raya is coming,just around the corner...preaprations?nothing much...just for my son...really done have any mood to celebrate also...hopefully after raya,things will go good again...gonna be busy after raya,i hope...there u go,nothing much left to say at the moment...see ya...

the end of it...?

1.it's a big question that i keep asking myself day in n day out...the answer to it is mostly yes,it's the end of it...it's the end of my duty in the company,it's the end of my responsibilities in the business,it's the end of it,yes it is...
2.havent been going to work since wednesday,i just stay at home,watch tv.yesterday i went to my friend's office for a while.been calling so many people over the past 3 days...3 days ago,i called up my father,after 5 years we never talk to each other.he sounded find and healthy.as usual,he will do all the talking whenever we talk over the phone...hmm..but,he's fine,i'm glad...
3.i think that's all...such a boring day to write anything....

sunday,weekend,end of days...

one question,how's ur sunday?mine is good,got up a lil' bit late,around 12:30.my girl was preparing lunch the time i got up.had a late nite last nite.slept around 4.finished futsal at 1am then cintinue with football match at channel 812 and some more movie at hbo.after lunch(i wanst fasting,again...he he),at around 4,i took a nap.got up at 5 when my girl woke mu up asking me if i were not feeling well...i told her i'm ok,just feel wanna sleep...now i'm back in front if the tv,watching fooball again...so,that's all for today...tomorrow is national day...happy 52nd independence day malaysia...

*i love my country....

a disappointment...a frustration...

It’s so disappointing when u found out that what u’ve been planning for your work is not working according to plan…and it’s so frustrating where u know that u’re the only one who is suffering…and it became worse when u realized u need to leave and walk away from what u’ve been working so hard for…and it’s killing u when u have to face it all by yourself but at the same time u created collateral damage…this is the part where I never wanted to happen in my life…this is the part where I started to hate myself…this is the part where most of the time I make drastic moves that mostly I disagree…this is the part where my decisions I will decide uncertainly…yes,I can face it,yes I can handle it,yes I can and will get thru it…but I hate the situation where I have to face it over and over again…and my utmost fear is what it will be affecting,what it will be destructing,what side effects will it caused as the result of my actions…but do I need to care about that?do I need to think about it?I don’t have to make sure everything is ok,I just need to make sure my things are ok…my time is running out,I know that for sure…

I am disappointed with myself,I am frustrated with my situation…really…

It’s time to start a new journey…take my hand,rescue me…

it's wednesday...

it's wednesday and i'm fasting today.this is my 2nd day fasting.ha ha...yesterday i got really bad migrane attack that i could even stand up.after my presentation i n rtm,i went straight home and sleep,from 5 till 7:40pm.for breakfasting i only had a glass of F&N strawberry and an some fruit cocktails.later at 8:30pm my girl came home and brought back some food,rice,lamb curry,fried fish and fried omelette.we went to bed early after watching csi:new york.i couldnt even open my eyes,damn migrane was killing me.got up 4am this morning,still aching then i continue sleeping.later at 9am,my girl woke me up.my head has recovered.thank god.now i need to prepare for my 2pm presentation at rtm.see ya.

3rd day of fasting...and it's monday...

monday is back...the day that full of blues...i'm already at work...waiting for some people to come over...work is nothing much,so far...my weekend was good.got enuff rest.got enuff sleep.fasting?i didnt...hu hu...today's the 3rd day of ramadhan,i'm still eating...ha ha...tomorrow got some pmore presentation to do in RTM.hope that'd be good like last week too.ok,nothing much to write here.need to prepare some invoices.see ya...

my friday...

i left the office at 7pm n went for dinner with my girl.it was pouring heavily outside.we had steamboat and we bought home some chicken wings and donuts from big apple.reached home at 9 and watch tv.it's friday,boston legal at star world.

that was the recent things i did.8 hours earlier,i was having breakfast with some people i used to worked with,we talked about work and current business situation.i only had milo.then around 10am i went in to my office.started writing additional storyline to one synopsis for next week presentation.

few hours before that,in my sleep,i had a dream.funny one.i dreamt of a friend,whom is the last person on earth i should be in dream with...ha ha ha...one whole nite been dreaming about him...i was hoping i'd meet him today,but i didnt.

back to present.still watching tv,still on star world,another law practice drama,shark.wanna continue watching.see ya.

*tomorrow fasting month starts...hmmm...

one good thursday...

been 3 days since i last wrote in here.pretty bz with work over the pass 2 days.preparing some papers for this morning presentation.talking about this morning,i had an early morning at RTM for programmes pitching.got up at 6:30am n reached there at about 7:40am.we (me,my boss and his P.A) were there for tv magazine's programme pitching (presentation).the schedule is at 9am,so we were early.then we pit stop at the cafetaria n the producer was there already.wow,she's earlier than us la...ha ha ha...then we enter the pitching room at 9:25 (as usual,these people never on time one..lol).the presentation went well.the chances of we would be awarded for the projects is 85-90%.it was good for me,good enuff to secure my business for next year.then after that we went to her office and prepare some papers for the next pitching next week..6 titles to go...so,cheerio..

searching...

...there were times when people came to me and asked me what I think about life,how I lived through the devastation it caused me most of the time.Well,I guess I just have to be strong though.I mean,not just strong to facing it but strong enough to live with it.And for me,it is typical.Typical because if you planting bad seeds,all you going to get is bad fruit.If you do bad deeds,well...what goes around,comes around.We just have to figure it out,learn about it,teach ourselves a lesson, keep on reminding ourselves how much pain we can bring to ourselves and entirely to our lives because of that,and the worst part is,we could end up dying,dying inside out if you know what I mean.I’d battled constantly,each and every single day,fighting ,striving, struggling,making the right choices,making the right moves,not to mention repenting and remorsing those stupid things I’ve done and gone through all my life.Would that be enough?Of course,they don’t.You have to go extra miles in order to get things done,in order to get things come to your way,in order to get things right.Don’t do it some of the time but all the time.It’s ok to make mistakes,it’s the best way to learn to be better.But in my case,I made mistakes all the time. It’s not that I didn’t learn from it,but I just can’t get the real answer,and I am still searching. Searching for the right answer,I suppose.Searching until there’s nothing left for me to further on.
I figure out something though,through out this life I’ve been living.Anything you do,whatever it is the situation,be it as a man or a woman,as a human being,you just can’t stop searching. Searching the way to be good in anything,searching the right way to be better every day,searching the best step for the next best step to take,searching and keep on searching.That’s what I was doing all these time and still am.Even people didn’t see anything good from it, especially those who had been with me.“Bob,you just don’t seem to make things right,all you do was creating messes.”I’d always hear that word.But there I was and here I am,still standing with all I’ve got.Then,another thing is to trust.Although trust doesn’t come that easy to me,but there are times you just need to trust someone and thus, you should start with someone.

save malaysian first...

yesterday when i'm on my my way to send my stepkids home,i saw a banner at the roadside saying "save palestine"...a programme that collects funds n channel it to the palestinians as they were suffering from the ongoing fights with the jews.hmm,not that i dont agree with this programme but i think we need to think about malaysian first before we do for others.it's noble to help others,that i agree 100% but wont it be better if we help our people here more than helping others from the other side?this campaign had been carried out by us since then n still going on n on,and it's like never enuff for them.i understand that they were suffering,i understand that they were in mess,in pain,and i understand the need for us to help each other but what about our suffering malaysians?what about our poor citizens?should all those funds we got or we gave out,we give it to the development of our unfortunate people first?shouldnt it be like that?yes,the government had and still doing their best managing this issue but extra effort like this programme has to be done for out people also.celebrity's stall for palestine funds,concerts to raise palestine fund,this programme,that programme...why can't we do the same for our poor,suffering ,unfortunate malaysians?or we do this to get our name to be on top of the world...?if that's the case,it's rather pethatic,i might say.not taht i want us to stop helping out our brothers n sisters there in palestine but we need to give priority to our brothers and sisters here as well...

a lazy sunday morning...

gloomy,cloudy,cooling...that's how i could describe my morning when i woke up at around 10 am.got up and fed my fishes n my cat.then shortly ther after,my girl woke up and made me a cup of nescafe...hmm not really a cup i might say,it's a mug...lol...

it's 1:20 pm,nothing much tho.waiting to have lunch.homecooked food.yum yum.and as lazy as my sunday today,i'm too,lazy to write here...so,see ya..

it never rains,it pours...

1.it's raining out there.
2.heavy pours.
3.i'm done with work.
4.restless
5.missing my son so much.
6.thinking about my mom.
7.worry about financial situation.
8.blank-no idea to continue the sinopsis
9.mood swing
10.not sure what to have for dinner
11.bored.
12.where's my girl?
13.hmm....

just something that came across my mind...

I’ve let myself to live in the life full of despairs,full of lies,full of stupidities,full of disgraces. Defeated by uncertainties,defeated by my delirious identity.It didn’t bring me anything good. People came in and went out of my life,though there were times some of them stay.I had done the best I could,I guess.Maybe the best I could just not enough.
“Good is not enough when better is expected.”Uncle Lipps told me that one day when we were playing golf together somewhere in the Country Homes. “Sometimes what you grab doesn’t stay in your hand unless you hold it tight.”I just smiled when he told me that.I tried to apply what he said and try to get the connection.I discovered a few things.The conclusion was,I’m just one hell of a stubborn guy.I was stubborn back then when I decided to marry Belinda,I was stubborn when I decided to call off our marriage,I was stubborn when I started my own construction business,I was stubborn with everything,my life,my decisions.Sometimes I just got carried away,I think.People just don’t see me the way they should.But I can’t blame them.I have my own priorities,and they themselves as well.I understand there are also times when I made a complete fool of myself.Make myself looked like a jack-ass.But there I was,not pretending anything,never was.I viewed my life in different kinds of perspectives,I looked it in every point of views.From each side.But people sometimes didn’t see me like that.Didn’t look at me like that.A friend of mine used to say this to me... “A real friend is the one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.”And now I just don’t know who’s my friend,who’s my foe.The way I see it,my friend,there are among them,turn out to be my foe sometimes.I don’t like to put it like I don’t trust my friend or anybody besides me, it’s just I just can’t trust them even I tried to.I hope I can rely on them,but I never did try.The past really taught me something though even not everytime.I’ve learnt from my mistakes.I’d just have to re-start my odyssey,my journey,reaching out my goals,grabbing back my life.Do the things all these while I had ignored.I have to achieve something.I have to show who I am again.I have to prove it to everybody.Hell,I’ve got to get up.Wake up from my long sleep and start to walk again. Or I think I prefer to run.Run and never gonna look back.Just like what I read from Dr.Phil McGraw’s book... “re-write and challenge my personal truth and live the life that lets me be who I am and who I am to be”. I will teach others how to live with me,I will teach others how to be with me,how to work with me,how to get along with me.Show them how good I am as a person,how good I am as a friend,as a human being.And at the same time,continue correcting myself,keep on searching to what actually I have to do for myself that can give benefit to myself and to others as well.Arise and never again fall down.Hope for the best and prepared for the worst. “Being an adult is to be an adult.To be success is to be success.”Uncle Lipps told me that. “Of course you will find it hard,but no matter what obstacles life may bring,always remember,you can fly.”I smiled to myself when I remember that words.I’m still lucky.Still lucky that I still have ample time to re-consruct my destructions and the devastations I had created. Neither to myself nor to everybody.

work...work...work...

today i'm back to work...yesterday i was having migrane attack,one whole day...i dunno what triggered it,but i was so suffering yesterday.i couldnt really get up.so i just lie down.then at noon my girl came back from work and brought home lunch.after eat,i went back to sleep till around 8.i only had my shower at 11.that was yesterday..now back to the future..got up at 9,as usual.at work,i'm just continuing my story,"Bikin Wilayah".all the proposed sinopsis are done and submitted.so i'm just waiting for the Pitching day to come.it's already 13th today,need to prepare rental and payment for bills.hmm...i'm struggling here...hope all i'm working on will be working as plan...got to go...c ya...

still trying...

it's tuesday,as usual my office is quiet.it's warm outside,my ac is full blast.today i'm defragmenting all my pcs and laptops...it's been working so hard the past few days...ok,i'm done with the first part of the sinopsis tasks.now i'm working on the second part,not much differents from the first part,it's just now i'm focusing on documentaries and tv magazines.pitching is scheduled on 17th onward.so i got only 6 days to get everything well prepared.yesterday i managed to finish up 10.so i better get back to work...c ya..

it's a tiring monday...

well,it's a tiring monday today...been looking at my pc n lappy whole day...manage to prepared few more sinopsis and get few from my friend.altogether got 11 complte sinopsis.need to email it tonite after i do double checks.my day was packed with summarization,brainstorming n writing and typing...pheww...tired n wired...i was a bit sleepy early in the morning.now all i wanna do is to go home,have dinner,take my shower and be in the couch n watch tv...that's all for now...ciao...

sleepy monday...

hey...it's monday again.well,as usual,got up at around 9,get ready and now at work.not feeling so fresh today,last nite i didn't play futsal.so no exercise for last week.last nite i went to bed a bit late again,after i watched the community shield match between my fav clubs,chelsea and man utd,i watched some more tv.perfect stranger at hb0.good movie starred by halle barry and bruce willis.then around 2:15,i went to sleep.last nite i had dinner with my gf's family...the sister,brother -in-law,nephews and nieces.then after sending the kids off,i rushed back to ampang sportsplanet.reached there almost 1/2 anhour late.so,i stopped by for a while make sure everyone was there to play,and yes,got extra players,so dont want to be like last week where i didnt get to play to the fullest,i went home.that was my yesterday...today,nothing much so far.just trying to finish my sinopsis summary.hope to finish it.didt get to do it in the weekend,lazy and dont feel like doing it also...ha ha..be back soon...ciao...

sunny sunday...

start my day with simpson the movie on star movies @ astro 413.funny movie tho.good stuff to start with,funny,disastrous,action-packed.dont have any plans for today just yet,but if ask me,i would rather stay in.not yet done with my work tho but i dont think i wanna do it today.i guess i just continue tomorrow.let my sunday be a whole resting day.wanna continue with my movie.ciao...

what a day...

woke up at 11 this morning...last nite i couldn't sleep...only can shut my eyes at around 5 am...tried to surf but the net was a pain in the ass.for awhile got connected,then after few minutes,disconnected.felt like i wanna slam the modem to the wall...then i made myself a cup of nescafe and had some biscuits.i only got 6 hours sleep today...now it's almost 2:30...cant sleep,still....ahh,today i had steamboat again...me,my girl and her two boys...hu hu,yummy..first we wanted to had some junkies from a&w,then while roaming in the parking bay,we came across the steamboat outlet...then,u know what happened...ha ha...then we stopped by at my girl's sis's place...around 8:30pm i had to rush to my office.got to print out my company's profile and pass it to an associate.then i helped my a friend of mine setting up his blog.around 11,i went back to the sis's place.played few rounds of pool...my girl almost beat me in a 13 rounds game.even i won 7 to 6,but still,she was getting better.hmm...that's my day...now i'm trying to sleep...hope i could...nite2...

tea break is just ok by having tea...

hu hu...i'm having my tea break now.kinda late where some people already heading for dinner around this time.i'm tired today,whole day writing and looking to the pc and my lappy...my eyes is so tired,lucky migrane didnt attack today...usually if i looked to the pc so long,i'll get attacked.yesterday i had i mild attack,that's bcoz my boss bring in the tempoyak - which got durian in it and durian is a trigger for me...!!!lucky i got my painkiller...that was yesterday,let's go back to the present...so the same question again n again,what's for dinner...?let me tell u that later...see ya...

warm day again...

it's a warm day again today...i felt so restless...i was hoping it's gonna be a gloomy day today..but it's ok,today is friday...yey...thank god...today i have a lot of summarization i need to do...done with two actually...still cracking my head to summarize the sinopsis that i have in my hand right now...from 11 pages to 3...ha ha...actually this is fro next years's project prospects...hoping the outcome would be good.at least i know that next year i still got work...ha ha...ok,need to get back to work...ciao...

it's a sunny day...

not like yesterday,it's a sunny day today.kinda warm tho,i was hoping it would be like yesterday,cooling and gloomy...office is as usual,quiet.the editor not here yet,my boss as well...ha ha...my day is boring so far,can't even continue writing my new script,no idea jut yet...lol...i'm wearing green shirt today...been wearing shirts over the past 4 days since monday...monday i wore checkered blue,tuesday was checkered yellow,yesterday checkered again in red and today green...tomorrow...?dunno yet...my girl asked me this morning..."wahh,4 days in a row wearing shirt...wat's up...?"ha ha...then i met a friend who used to be my co's creative director specialised in animation.he was actually looking for me bcuz last nite when he stopped by to my office,i already left.so as usual,he whined about his work,the setbacks he was going thru,all crappy deals he got himself into,then to his future projects in mind,bla bla bla...then the best part was he paid for my bfast...ha ha ha...so i guess that's all for now...c ya...

the day is almost done for me...

it's 15mins after 5...i'm done with work...having a tiffin now...noodle soup...yummy...the wheather today is cloudy and gloomy...it was raining just not at noon,quite heavy i might say.now it's humid n cooling.work today was ok for me.my boss came into the office at about 3.played ps2 for a while...ha ha...i lost twice to him,lol...now here i am,having my tiffin.today my mind was all over,kinda something is bugging me,but i'm not sure what is it...so i better stop here before i got carried away and make myself look like a jackass...ha ha ha...

day 3...

day 3 of the week...it's 10:20 am,just done with breakfast.the usual,iced milo and 2 half boiled-eggs.so far i've got nothing much to do in the office,no appointments,no clients coming over.maybe iwould just continue writing the script i'm working on currently.a story about a mute bounty hunter who's assisted by his girlfriend whose life is anger-driven towards the cruel society.kinda violent i might say but i dont give a damn.my story,my script.oh yes,yesterday me n my girl,we had steamboat for dinner.something funny happened...ha ha ha...this is embarrasing,but what the heck...i was putting all the food into the boiling bowl then my girlfreind asked me to put the eggs inside.then without any guilt i just straight away put the eggs inside the bowl...without breaking it...!!!ha ha ha...and then she jumped,"baby,break the shell first la..!!"and then she started laughing...wakakakaka...i thought just put the egg inside just like that....silly me...but u know,i just laugh it away...usually i will have the egg in half-boiled with the soup...it was so funny...we went home with both stuffed stomache.ha ha ha...talking about dinner,what's for lunch today?hmm...talk about it later...c ya...

laugh laugh laugh...

ha ha ha...i got this from an email my girl sent to me...enjoy ya'll...



MALAYSIAN ASTRONAUTS American Spaceman is called Astronaut Russian Spaceman is called Cosmonaut Chinese Spaceman is called Taikonaut Malaysian Spaceman??? - Can-or-naut
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Dr. M was thinking about sending somebody into space. Three potential can-or-nauts were called for an interview - one Indian, one Malay and one Chinese. Dr. M interviews the Indian first: "So, Muthu, this is a dangerous mission. How much do you think you should be paid?" Muthu replied: "One million ringgit." "Why so much?" asks Dr. M. "Very dangerous mission, Datuk. Maybe no come back!" replied Muthu. "That's understandable," says Dr. M. "Thank you.. Please ask the Malay guy to come here," So the Malay walks up, and is asked the same question. "Alamak!...2 million, Datuk," replied the Malay candidate. "Two million? That's twice as much! Even the aneh before you asked for only one million." "You see, Datuk," explains Mat, "I have 4 wives and 15 children ... With 20 of us, it is a big family to support when I am gone...!" "I see," says Dr. M. "Okay, can you ask that Chinese guy to come then?" The Chinese guy comes in and Dr. M asks, "Ah Chong, given this is a very risky mission, how much do you want?" Ah Chong thinks for a while, and says, "3 million." Mahathir appears shocked. "What?!? 3 million! Why so much?" Ah Chong beckons Dr. M to come closer. He quietly whispers into his ear, "Datuk, one million you keep, one million I keep, and then one more million to send that aneh into space lah!"
And...the Muthu was finally sent out to space.....

wakakakaka......

done with stamping...hu hu...

at last i'm done with stamping...got my refund and the lady officer who was attending me just now was so polite and alert.credit to her...i learnt another lesson today,sometimes u just have to be plain stupid when u r not sure of something...just ask question even it may sounds silly...i said that becuz before this i can't accept mistakes easily,especially when it comes to work or tasks.since i was in the manufacturing industry 10 years ago until i'm in entertainment business,presently...so the situation just now made me think that people make mistakes everyday in their lives,as well as i am...but today it wasn't really my mistake,it was hers...but still,i can go along with it with smile...not just becuz the officer was a lady,(she got no slit eyes,not my kind...ha ha ha)it's just simply go with the flow...even it cost me my time but it's ok...i'm fine with it...so i'm now enjoying my frappucino wit extra caramel at starbucks...mmm,yum yum...see ya...

another situation at LHDN

ha ha ha...gto a situation in lhdn just now...i was doing some stampings there and the officer wrongly charged me for the fee...2nd time doing stamping...lol...the first time i was fined due to the agreement date...lol...today due to the period of tenancy...hmm,but good tho,got to learn new things...now i need to wait till 3 and go there again to collect the agreement they needed to cancelled...hmm,as usual,"our boss is out,u need to come back..."excuses,excuses...

*better double check ur agreement before u got it stamped...lol...

2nd day of the week...

i woke up with stomachache...not sure whether it was the chicken wings i had for dinner or the nasi lemak....but it didnt matter...i'm used to it already...ok,today i got to go to LHDN,got stamping to do...breakfast for me only iced milo...stomach still aching,so couldnt really eat tho...today,i forgot to stick the car road tax for my gf's car again...ha ha,3 days in a row i forgot...i better do it later this evening..don't want her to get into trouble with the authorities...talking about authorities,just now i read the news about 4 men were send to prison for 8 years for wacking a snatch theft to death and they pleaded guilty to an alternative charge of culpable homocide not amounting to murder...they were vigilantes,even they may get overboard.we might do the same thing if it happened to us...i would do the same thing,i would beat the bastards...and we might get carried away also...anger,revenge,vengeance...things are going wrong with our world these days...we need to make changes...we should start making one now...it's all about economy,all about money,all about ringgit malaysia..we have enuff of it,snatch theft,loan sharks,robbery will end...how to mkae it enuff...?that we need to ask ourselves what we should do.there are so many ways to earn it.basically,work our ass off no matter what.that's the fundamentals...challenge ourselves and see how far can we go....

*word of the day - good is not enuff when better is expected...

it's 8 pm...

ahh...thank god,i'm done for the day...not so productive but it was a fine day at work...just had dinner,nasi lemak n chicken wings...yum yum...u guys should try 'em...come to uk perdana and i'll treat u with it...hu hu...now gotta watch news at tv3...see ya...

have a laugh...

just to lighten up our day...
1.Tom was invited to his friend’s house for dinner. He found that his buddy called his wife every cute name in the book: honey, darling, sweetheart, pumpkin, and baby.When she was in the kitchen, he leaned over to his friend and said, “I think it’s nice you still call your wife all those pet names.” “To tell you the truth,” his friend said, “I forgot her name abut three years ago.”
2.A high school student is in the counselor’s office. “So tell me, what things interest you?“I’d like to cut people open and run my fingers through their liver and heart!”The counselor chuckle and after a long pause says, “Well, I guess that means you’ll either be a surgeon or psychotic killer. Tell me more about yourself.” The student paused for a minute and said; “Well, to start with, I’m never wrong.” “Other people adore me and do exactly as I say…or if they don’t, they should.” The counselor smiles and says; “Surgeon it is!”
3.A guy was in a cave, looking for treasure. He found an old lamp, rubbed it, and a genie came out. The genie said "I will grant you three wishes, but your ex-wife will get double." The man agreed, and said "I wish I had a mansion." The genie granted it, and his ex-wife got two mansions. The man said "I would like a million dollars." The genie again granted it and his ex-wife got two million dollars. Then the man said, "Scare me half to death."
4.A truck driver was driving along on the freeway and noticed a sign thatread: Low Bridge Ahead. Before he knows it, the bridge is right in front of him and his truck gets wedged under it. Cars are backed up for miles.Finally a police car comes up. The cop gets out of his car and walks to the truck driver, puts his hands on his hips and says, 'Got stuck, huh?' Thetruck driver says, 'No, I was delivering this bridge and I ran out of gas.'

ha ha ha...

lunch anyone...?

it's 12:45,lunch time ya'll...thinking what should i have for lunch...the usual or something different...hmm,dunno yet...it's so hot out there,and i'm wearing two layers...arrgghh....!!!office is quiet since i came in...my boss is not in yet..as usual nothing much to do...i thought i wanna run some errands but maybe i'll wait till tomorrow...lot of bills to be paid,lot of documents to be posted...money out yet not so much in...can't close any deals lately...work harder..?dunno how harder should i be...but the word of a genius,"there will be light at the end of the tunnel"...but where is the tunnel?

got monday blues...?

hi...it's monday,the day of the blues cameback...ha ha...back to work with a high level of laziness...my weekend was great...having the kids around me,my stepsons,my cute nieces n slit eye nephews...lol...last nite futsal wasn't good,i played for only like 15mins...one hour game,16 players...it wasn't a contenting game...if i knew there were gonna be a lot of player came,i won't even go...but nevermind,wait till next sunday...i'm hoping today is a productive day for me...let see how it goes,catch up later...

freedom writers...

started my day with FRIENDS on starworld,then i switched to hbo on channel 411...it showed "freedom writers",a story about a committed teacher who must find a way to bring her racially disparate class together in the shadow of the LA riots..black kids,asian,hispanic...a determination of a young dedicated teacher who tried her very best to make a difference.in the movie she asked her troubled students to start writing a diary of their own life on a daily basis.then she asked them to read books,started with the diary of anne frank,the story about a jewish lady who suffered the nazi's occupation of the netherlands...this movie is about making changes,changes to our ownselves,changes to society...changes for every one...i've been there before,i mean,trying to make a change...and i did...i succeed...but changes are not meant to be only one time...changes can be all the time,changes can be every minute...what really matter is what kind of changes...good one,bad one...it's all up to us...and for me,i'll keep making changes on any given day...heading for the greatness...try being the greatest...come along with me...there are plenty of spaces here...

tired but happy...

i just came back home from a whole day outing...i woke up pretty early today,as usual,my cat,howling and howling...ha ha ha...and it's saturday...!!!then i couldnt sleep already,so i turned on the tv...around 9:30 my girl woke up and with the half past two face (ha ha ha) she asked me why i got up so early..."duchess woke me up..."i said...duchess is my cat's name...then i helped her cleaning the house,only vacuuming n mopping...lol...thenwe left the house around 2pm and went for lunch...the traffic,my God,really killing my knee..bad traffic everywhere...then in the evening we made a pit stop at her sis's place...we played pool...ha ha...today i beaten her brother-in-law twice...and i had no idea how...ha ha...so,that's my day today...gonna wash up now...see ya...

music in me...

ha ha...been listening to indie songs today...to name a few,zee avi-kantoi,yuna-dan sebenarnya,ali ahmad-satu kepala,mr.b-beautiful...good songs,good music,good arrangement.ok,talking about music,my fav topic actually...music had been a huge influence to me since i was brought up by people who not just loves music but actually in the music scene...my mom was a cabaret singer(ha ha ha...she has a good voice u know...),my auntie also a singer in a big band (and she won several singing contests),my uncle played instrument when he was alive,trumpet to be exact...and music was played all day in our house,be it from the radio,gramaphone,record player or cartridge...ol' skool...ha ha ha...and that lead me to my interest to play music instrument as well...i started to learn guitar when i was 11...but i find it hard becuz i was a lefty,and learn yourself was so damn hard...then i switch to drums...and to be frank,i'm pretty good in it...ha ha...played in a few bands in my teenage time...but never serious in it...ok my kind of music mostly are rock and rap...ha ha...some people dont believe it when i said i like hip-hop...but for me any music is still cool...as long as it is music...i know music had influenced u guys as well...so,keep rockin',keep rappin',keep the music soul alive...

i'm feeling good...

ok,now i feel good n a bit relief...yesterday's mess is out of my head now...i just had my lunch...rice,fish,cuttlefish,a bit of vegie n plain water...i'm stuffed...lol...work is as usual,not much...received a call from a friend said he wanted to meet me up later tonite...sounds cool,it's been like over 10 years we havent met...must have a lot of catching ups to do...so,we'll see how it goes...(",)

nothing much to say today...

i had a usual morning today...got up at 9,shower and iced milo for breakfast...but today i got nothing much to write here since i was still affected by yesterday's events...i was so disappointed,angry and kinda emotional...i dunno what's going on or what went south,everything kinda not as what i wanted them to be...i remember an answer an old friend of mine used to say everytime i asked "how's life?"..."life sucks as usual..."hmm...i guess,now it's my turn to use that line...credit to my friend,joshua...ok,that's all for the time being...ciao...

last nite i had a multiple wierd dreams...dreamt of me going fishing and captured a lil' girl (who actually a fish...ha ha ha) then cooked for kelantan people to eat.then a dream about me having another kid brother who was living in iraq and came back to malaysia to pursue his degree...ha ha,what a dream...and the dream continued till my girl woke me up...told her about the wierd dreams i had,turns out she also had few dreams but she couldnt remember any of 'em...ha ha...our topic this morning is about our house where some payments need to be made,lawyer fees,contractor's fee and few other things.i reached my office at 10.i'm suppose to close an filming equipment rental today but no answer form my clients.got some backlog payment needs to be collected also today.hope i could remit some to the account.bills,bills,bills...

today's...

thank God it wasn't a quiet day today...even tho still got nothing much to do,but few affiliates came over and brought in some inputs about what' going on in the entertainment industry at the time being...well,not that i wasn't aware just getting extra inputs is good for me...they came to my office and started telling me about their work and projects...bla bla bla...then they have this new project they wanted to jv with my company...after reviewing their proposal,i thought it was a good programme,but i'm not indulge to reveal it here since this is a p&c project...ha ha...u know how it works...but unfortunately,(for me),this project could only be started next year...hmm,such a long wait...but the positive part,i know next year i got a big thing to start with in january...still,i'm grateful...at the moment,let me think of something else...will let u know later...ciao...

breakfast anyone...?

started my morning with my cat howling from outside my bedroom window...damn it was 7 in the morning and she wanted to come in...i covered my ears with the pillows and went back to sleep...but i dont wanna write about that...i wanna write about my mission statement...personal mission statement actually...i have this ambition being a billionaire...it was always m y ambition even since i was a kid...do u remember when we were in primary during the year end we had to fill up the student profile where there was a column where we need to fill up the column of our ambitions...?there were 3 columns,and u know what i wrote?millionaire,multi-millionaire and of course,billionaire...ha ha ha...but no i'm already 36,still struggling to be yet not even close...hmm...that's y i joint this blogging site bcuz my bro told me these brilliant ideas of what i could achieve from here...having a blog was a start...the next step is to give some efforts on signing up to multiple sites that could generate good income for me...yeah,i know,there are thousands of people already made bank thru the net,but i believe it's time for me now...if u watched jerry mcguirre,there were a line of dialogue (dont recall who n who...lol) that says,"show me the money..."i'm intend to show that to u once i succeed...now,gotta work my ass off...see ya...

still thinking...

it's 11:15 pm,watching tv n surfing,pretty much trying to write something here...ha ha...had an early dinner with my other half at about 7...so it's actually about time for me to get hungry again...lol...might grab a bite soon...it's an ordinary night tho,just like always...hoping for a busy day tomorrow since i've got nothing much to do at work recently...that's all for now...spare it for tomorrow...

just started...

today is my first time having a blog...ha ha ha,i know,it's kinda late...but never too late to start one,right...?it's a whole new thing for me,but i'll learn and get used to it...and hope to benefits myself n others,tangibly and intangibly...so,i'll write again tomorrow...peace...